Sometimes you just don’t know….and that’s okay.

I’m gonna be real with you guys. Taylor and I are set to chat about this blog in about 12 hours, and guess what? I haven't even started writing it yet. insert melting face emoji. For the past 48 hours, I've been testing out different topics, but, you know, ADHD brain and all. So, here we are, with me having started this thing about a dozen times already. As I sit down to write this, it hits me: this whole process feels like being caught up in a whirlwind of evolving.

Now, let's define evolving. You know that movie, "Inside Out"? If you haven't seen it, well, get it on your watchlist and come back after you've had a good happy cry. If you have seen it, think back to the part where all of Riley's personality islands come crashing down as she tries to navigate life in San Francisco. Each island represents a piece of Riley's personality, and when they tumble, she's left feeling all kinds of out-of-whack—irritable, lost, and distant from those who matter most. Sound familiar? Yeah, we've all been there.

My own little islands took a nosedive last year for a good few months, and let me tell you, it was like waking up in a parallel universe. Things that I'd usually breeze through suddenly became Mount Everest-level challenges. I was sweating bullets at work because I felt like I was speechless during client sessions (and if you know me, being speechless is not exactly my trademark, haha). Long story short, I was freaking out that the parts of me I held dear had vanished into thin air.

I vividly remember chatting with Taylor, filled with uncertainty about whether I'd ever feel like "me" again. It was rough, really rough. In the midst of me being peak freak-out Taylor tells me there's no pressure to be anyone other than who I am in that very moment. And if that "me" is different from the one a week ago, she's all in for getting to know this fresh version of me. Cue the relief! Suddenly, I'm not in panic mode anymore; I'm on a quest to figure out what's up and how to fix whatever was going on. Turns out, there wasn't anything to "fix."

Sometimes, chaos is exactly where we’re meant to be. My islands were down because they were under construction and if I could talk to the Kassidy then I’d tell her that there are such good things coming she wouldn’t even know to ask for them let alone prepare for them. I was grappling with some heavy stuff, facing up to old traumas, and it led to parts of myself going offline for a while. It was all part of the healing process, as it turns out. Looking back, it helped me settle more into the thought that my value is not tied to my performance (not all the way, let’s not get crazy). Despite me feeling like I was floundering, the people I loved, loved me still. In the moment, though? Oh boy, I had no clue what tomorrow held, let alone the next week or month! (Which, let me tell you, is totally out of character for me, I’m a 10 year planner hahaha).

So, here's the deal: whether you're staring at a blank page wondering what to write next, or you're feeling lost about your next move in life, keep showing up. Whether you're tiptoeing or power-walking through life right now, just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You’re inner child will admire you and your future self is cheering you on!